ENCOUNTER
You know guys, our school went to a retreat at G12 Campus in Venee's Hotel just this saturday. It was all-girls so that no one of us can be embarrassed. We went there in the morning. ate food while some people were lecturing, chit chatting, and etc. I kind of expected that something really incredible is going to happen that day. So I was actually ready for anything. We were having a lot of lectures during the day and I learned a lot from those lectures. I already knew that both
HEAVEN and
HELL are real. It's really real. When time passed by, we first did was to forgive. For me, it was quiet new to me. I was somehow afraid to forgive. But I let it all out, I didn't know why I kept on crying. While we were on session, I heard a lot of weeping and some laughing.(namely: chivy and chime). So I was really amazed with what God had done to me and to them. I let all of my hurt and misunderstandings and kept on crying. My throat was really bursting out and I can't even stop both shouting and crying. (To te jill & czar: te jill, thanks for lending me your shoulders to cry on tsaka sorry rin kung nasipunan kita.XD and to czar, thanks for comforting me and helping me when I was crying out loud.) So, it was, after all, somewhat amazing and unbelievable to think that you could cry it out and leave it to God's loving hands. But, to tell you the truth, I let all of my hurt and regained back my friendship towards people. I was really happy that I did forgive!
So the 1st part of the retreat ended before we ate our lunches. After that, there were about 3 to 4 lectures, I think, before the
ENCOUNTER WITH GOD happened. After the lectures, I thought that it's gonna end. I mean the retreat is gonna end. But, we were told to move the chairs aside and I knew that
IT was going to start in a matter of minutes. So I made myself ready before God. On my left side, there was Ronel. On my right side was Dii-chan. We were told to raise both our hands to the sky and let the Holy Spirit make wonders to us. At first, I suddenly began crying and crying and begging the Lord to come into me. I can also remember that I was thinking really hard of the phrase, "You'll find me seeking You, You'll find me seeking You." It left a mark on my mind and kept on thinking about it while a person was guiding and praying for me. The commotion was becoming loud and I can still remember that I can't even understand anything that I heard. I said to myself that I don't want to open my eyes because I wanterd to feel God. There were a lot crying and laughing and speaking in tounges. Me, I knew that God is with us by that moment so I thought that I want to give in to Him. Any moment, the person guided me to sit down because I was really trembling and holding into my knees. I could also remember that I kept on crying. My throat was about to explode because i kept on crying and crying and then stop...and then cry and cry then there were also the time that I said to God that I want to see my great-grandmother at that moment. I was kept on repeating to God that I want to see her and know that she's with Him. I'm not sure if I got the gift of vision but I saw some light that was moving like a candle.(Dii-chan told me that she has that vision before we had our retreat.) And also there was the battle of light and darkness. I was struggling to know what was going on and I didn't know what to do but in the end, the light won the fight and I was overwhelmed.(Diichan also experienced this.) So there, Rika testified just this day and she mentioned to the class that I kept on kicking her the moment we had our encounter but I didn't knew I was kicking her. She also said that I was laughing and crying and laughing. And also, I was speaking in tounges! Well, I could remember a little that I didn't knew what I was speaking. I was just sitting and suddenly, I was like talking to someone in another language. I'm not sure though. All I can remember is that I lied down in the ground and I also heard Ronel and Rika cry out. At that moment, I also felt my body was tickled by something so I let out my laugh and then cry again. I thought that there were still a lot of people lying in the floor so I didn't mind my surroundings. Until I opened my eyes and then saw some of my friends and saw Ronel crying infront of me. We both hugged each other and me, Diichan, and Ronel went back to our respective seats like we were walking like drunk people. After that, I was given merienda and saw Rika lying on the floor and she suddenly cried out really hard while some people were helping her carry from the floor. After that, I didn't knew I was suddenly crying seeing Rika like that. And after that, I thought that the encounter was going to end but I suddenly laughed out really hard. I didn't knew that that would be the starting time of my laughter-then-crying time. I kept on doing it but I couldn't stop myself. (Thanks to Kamae, T. Sheila, T. Janeth, T. Sheila, Angel and to the rest who helped me come back to myself.) Some said that I was really laughing hard and then crying and then laughing so on and so forth. I could also that I was laughing with reason when I saw Chivy and we looked at each other for a split second and then.. our laughs could fill the room up. I could also remember Chime and Guichan's laughs after I broke my laugh with Chivy. T. Sheila told us that it's like talking and responding to someone's laughs. I could also remember that I was shaking myself though I was already on my seat while the speaker is speaking infront of us. Dunno why but Chime, Chivy, Gui, and I was really laughing hard w/o reasons. I also saw some Jacinto students watching us. I could also remember Rina and Mie shaking while Joanne and Diichan was both speaking in tongues. Thanks to the prayers and those who prayed for me, it really did helped me restore myself again though it took me plenty of time to gain myself again. Thank you so much!
Up to now, I could still feel God's Holy Spirit within us. It's really powerful and I pray that I won't let go of that experience in my life up until I grow old. I'm really happy that I experienced God's gifts because I was really wishing that I can somehow experience it even if it's just once. But right now, I'm really blessed to accept God and worshipping Him.
THANK YOU LORD FOR YOU ARE THE LIGHT IN MY DARKNESS!LAST SATURDAY WAS THE BEST DAY OF MY LIFE!I LOVE YOU LORD!
