wee! i'm back~ :]] how is everyone doing? it's already summer in here.weee~! there are a lot of people in the house and they're staying up for summer time.:)) right now, i'm kind of sad because my aunt won't let me join a 3-day retreat @ The Lord of the Harvest Church. no matter what i do, she won't let me.D: i only knew a few classmates & schoolmates of mine who would join the retreat starting this afternoon, 6pm, up to sunday. i wanna join but i guess there's a reason why so i'm fighting back at my aunt 'cause it will only cause a trouble. especially that a there's people in the house staying in so there's more work to be done. :D
anyways, in other news...
^ ^ ^ | | i miss these people already!XD
in another news, penguin boy's already 19!(04-15-10)waaa~XD
once again...
A HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY TO YOU!
may you always have a fruitful life to live and stay still as the "manong" i know.XD happy birthday!
MEN! I JUST CAN'T BELIEVE THAT HE REALLY GOT A PERMED WITH BROWN COLORED HAIR. diichan just called me awhile ago and she said about this phenomenom that the both of often talk about. it was rumored that he got his hair permed but the thing about his hair color, well, it was going happen. then again, thanks to diichan that the news was true about his hair being permed. as i went to http://community.livejournal.com/hey_say (thanks for the picture!:]) i then scan the posts there and finallysaw a shocker.
up until now, i still don't know how would i react to this kind of thing...
XD
but, it was his decision after all. that manong...
Aqua Timez – Ketsui no Asa ni (In the Morning of Decision)
If you want to do something, then sketch out your pitiful dream If you want to do something, then sketch out your dream with badly lit, but pleasant love “You don’t have to pretend, not being very cool suits you well”
The more effort we put into it, the more fruitless our journey is Our hands and fleet fly everywhere like we’re in an elementary school parade Living life, isn’t it great? So being laughed at by people definitely feels alright
The real me is shut away in the depths of my heart 36/5 human, to put it plainly now, we don’t stop But I’m still acting tough, I’m still putting up a barrier I’m fighting with the pain
Times are tough, I wish I could say that; that’s how I feel We’re a couple of laughing cowards, acting tough Even though I’m lonely, I’m pretending to be just fine In order to protect myself, who feels like he’s about to crumble
It shouldn’t be only me that feels these feelings of having no place to turn to I’m carrying with me This rootless loneliness…
I’m indifferent to the pain of others When I’m really being myself, I get insecure I hate people, and I think only of being unhappy I whine about the things that I’m deprived of I scream and cry like a 3 year old kid I’m sitting and waiting for my afternoon snack, called love
Not giving in to the reflection in the asphalt Walking with my own feet, I looked at people, and thought If I could move, if there was a place I wanted to head to Then I would walk there with my own feet
There were nights when I wasn’t sure if I’d be able to Get my real smile back again Supported by the warmth of the people that I love I thought that maybe I should try to believe, one more time
Times are tough, I wish I could say that; that’s how I feel We’re a couple of laughing cowards, acting tough Even though I’m lonely, I’m pretending to be just fine In order to protect myself, who feels like he’s about to crumble, but
My mistakes and scars, being perplexed and the days when I was about to cry They’re all proof that I lived my life, as myself If you want to do something, then from now on Sketch out your pitiful dream, with more strength than anyone else Readying your explanation, and holding your head high without hesitation Keep on singing about a person called yourself
*credits to: http://hollowslayer0413.wordpress.com
merry, nabasa ko na yung reply mo.:) wala na koy maingon kay naigo ko sa heart. sorry pud kung nakahilak ka. nakahilak pud ko habang ginasulat nako to sa paper. hahaha. XD. chime, THANK YOU! I LOVE YOU, MERRY~!
for you..... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=X_rp5rtyZJg
to the one who blends her voice with mine first of all, I would like to great you a belated happy 15th birthday. you know to whom i am reffering to right? XD hehehe. i was really wishing that i could make you a letter and here it is.:D im also writing this to let you know that from the buttom of my heart, i thank you for being and telling me things. thank you for all of these years that the both of us spent together. thank you for sharing your thoughts and for blending yours to mine. thank you for standing on your ground and fighting for what you believe is right. and that's one thing that i like about you. though, i'm the kind of opposite to you, we instead became friends... friends for stupid things and friends for real. i also thank you because you accept me for who i am. that's also one thing that i really needed from someone like you.
you know, the time when you said something about her, i felt that you really cared for someone like me. i wanted to say that, you're one of the people who i really admire. to stand on her own ground and to live happily with family and friends. though you may see me as an idiotic & stupid/can't understand person & alien, i really appreciate it & i'm comfortable when you're around. the truth is, even though i'm like this kind of person, i'm really hurting inside. she was the first one to know about me & my family's situation when i came back to japan last year. she was there to comfort me and to understand what i've gone through.
i was planning to tell you guys, but i guess i still can't. i'll tell it to you slowly so that the pain won't come back. at that time, i was ready to tell her about the truth. that's why she's important to me even though she acts like that. there was one time that i asked God to lent me someone whom i can spend with and i can share my feelings & thoughts to. God answered my prayer and it goes that all along the way, she was the one i asked God about. though sometimes, i tend to be uncomfortable because she's like that. but above all these things i said to you, i really thank you for simply becoming a true bestfriend to me. i'm sorry about things because i know that may pagkukulang din ako sa iyo. i'm sorry because i'm sometimes clueless & reckless but that's one thing that would make you and others feel happy & light-hearted. i'm also sorry because i spend most of my time with her. i wanted to start all over again so that our friendship would be renewed. so that also we can spend more time together as sisters & bestfriends. what do you say? :D
I LOVE YOU, CHIME!
p.s. i wanted you to listen to this song because this is what i sometimes feel. (demi lovato- believe in me)
love, your bestfriend forever & still an alien, Argon. XD
wee! i'm back~ :]] how is everyone doing? it's already summer in here.weee~! there are a lot of people in the house and they're staying up for summer time.:)) right now, i'm kind of sad because my aunt won't let me join a 3-day retreat @ The Lord of the Harvest Church. no matter what i do, she won't let me.D: i only knew a few classmates & schoolmates of mine who would join the retreat starting this afternoon, 6pm, up to sunday. i wanna join but i guess there's a reason why so i'm fighting back at my aunt 'cause it will only cause a trouble. especially that a there's people in the house staying in so there's more work to be done. :D 
