hi everyone! how are you doing lately?? well, me, i'm doing fine. :DD
so some news that i would like to tell is that i'm currently taking my 2nd prelim exams(tomorrow's gonna be the last day of exams~ YEAH~!). so in other news, i'm also currently hanging out in deviantart. which is totally a great site for me. (visit me there if you have time!:D : iamargenn.deviantart.com) and yeah, most of the things i like are all there: photography, cosplay and such. E: hehehe. i've also had lost track in here which is why i'm posting this. and I'M SORRY! SORREH!XD
i've got one bad news, for the last one and one-half month that i'm waiting for my cat to go home(he run away actually. T_T), he still did not come back. i'm worried if he's dead or something. ARRRGHHHH! GOT NO MORE CUTE CATS TO CUDDLE~ T_T i'm going to miss him so much.
here's some of his pictures:
i hope he'd come back.D:
in other news, i'm also hooked up to Owl City songs like 'SALWATER ROOM & METEOR SHOWER' i love these songs. :DD really.~
and i guess that's it for this time.:D i'll post new things next time.
please do visit my deviantart :)) it's 'iamargenn.deviantart.com'
aaaaaaand, HI BLOG~!!! it's been awhile ne? XDD so how are you? i'm really sorry if i can't be active in here for days. i'm busy with some stuff but not to worry about that.:)
lately, i've been using deviantart.:) it's fantastic!!i get to meet a lot of good & amazing artists, photographers & people too.:D it's a nice feeling. E:
it's also a nice feeling when you become a part of someone's life. if you made an impact to that person. it's all worth it.:) i have once read this: 'it's an amazing experience to make an impact to a person's life, it's rather great than having an impact for nothing.'
*~sighs~*
i wonder if i really told someone that he's weird.
HI BLOG!!! I MISS THIS BLOG ALREADY. FOR ONE MONTH SIX DAYS, i didn't opened this blog of mine. anyways, how are you blog? how's life? :DD
you know, A LOT OF THINGS happened since i last updated this blog. like UPCAT, CAT, stress about school works & being a leader. i'll admit that i'm really really tired of these things that i need a time for myself. to feel the world around me. to live my life and be alive. i miss being a child already.. like playing in the water, playing jackstones, tumba lata, taguanay and a lot more. THIS DAY IS SO TIRING. I went to UP Mindanao and had my college admission test for 5 straight hours. the test started 6:30 a.m.and ended up to 11:50 a.m. but at the least, i know i did my best to take that test with all the powers of the benders.(XD) lol. but yeah, i did my job.:DD also that, we had our CAT training on FIRST AID just this afternoon right away after i had my UPCAT test. and by the way, i only got 5 hours to sleep today. but still, i managed to cope up and deal with things. Thank you, Lord.
and yes, I WILL DEFINATELY BUY A PHOTOGRAPHER'S CAMERAin the near future., hopefully. :DD
Hi guys! It's been a long time, ne? XDD lol. anyways, I would like to introduce to you my fandubs~
This is my cover for YUI's song Goodbye Days. Recently, me and my friends were hooked up with recording our own voices. We already made some fandubs and it can be seen in YouTube. (type in msdiichan and merrymoto to find some fandubs we made.) Yeah, so basically, we love singing with one another.:D Dianne have had her fandubs and hers are great. She first made a cover of Goodbye Days and then I tried to sing it, so here it is. Please bear with the audio. Just ignore it.XDD hehe. PLEASE ENJOY! :) :)
and btw, i also made a Paramore fandub of their song, 'When It Rains' and another YUI song called 'TOKYO'. (if you have a YouTube account, please subscribe me and be my friend! THANKS!:]])
hi guys! i'm back! lol. sorry if i just opened and posted a post just this day. i just realized that i must open my blog and here i am.:) i'm going to post some pictures which i call 'my own photography'. hehehe. maybe next time, i'll open my blog and then post some things in here. btw, classes are fast approaching. my 'so long summer' days are finally here. waaaa! i still don't wanna graduate from such a stage in my life. i wanna stay with things the way it's supposed to be. :((
anyways, here are my 'my own photography' pictures. hope you like it. :D :):]
wee! i'm back~ :]] how is everyone doing? it's already summer in here.weee~! there are a lot of people in the house and they're staying up for summer time.:)) right now, i'm kind of sad because my aunt won't let me join a 3-day retreat @ The Lord of the Harvest Church. no matter what i do, she won't let me.D: i only knew a few classmates & schoolmates of mine who would join the retreat starting this afternoon, 6pm, up to sunday. i wanna join but i guess there's a reason why so i'm fighting back at my aunt 'cause it will only cause a trouble. especially that a there's people in the house staying in so there's more work to be done. :D
anyways, in other news...
^ ^ ^ | | i miss these people already!XD
in another news, penguin boy's already 19!(04-15-10)waaa~XD
once again...
A HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY TO YOU!
may you always have a fruitful life to live and stay still as the "manong" i know.XD happy birthday!
MEN! I JUST CAN'T BELIEVE THAT HE REALLY GOT A PERMED WITH BROWN COLORED HAIR. diichan just called me awhile ago and she said about this phenomenom that the both of often talk about. it was rumored that he got his hair permed but the thing about his hair color, well, it was going happen. then again, thanks to diichan that the news was true about his hair being permed. as i went to http://community.livejournal.com/hey_say (thanks for the picture!:]) i then scan the posts there and finallysaw a shocker.
up until now, i still don't know how would i react to this kind of thing...
XD
but, it was his decision after all. that manong...
Aqua Timez – Ketsui no Asa ni (In the Morning of Decision)
If you want to do something, then sketch out your pitiful dream If you want to do something, then sketch out your dream with badly lit, but pleasant love “You don’t have to pretend, not being very cool suits you well”
The more effort we put into it, the more fruitless our journey is Our hands and fleet fly everywhere like we’re in an elementary school parade Living life, isn’t it great? So being laughed at by people definitely feels alright
The real me is shut away in the depths of my heart 36/5 human, to put it plainly now, we don’t stop But I’m still acting tough, I’m still putting up a barrier I’m fighting with the pain
Times are tough, I wish I could say that; that’s how I feel We’re a couple of laughing cowards, acting tough Even though I’m lonely, I’m pretending to be just fine In order to protect myself, who feels like he’s about to crumble
It shouldn’t be only me that feels these feelings of having no place to turn to I’m carrying with me This rootless loneliness…
I’m indifferent to the pain of others When I’m really being myself, I get insecure I hate people, and I think only of being unhappy I whine about the things that I’m deprived of I scream and cry like a 3 year old kid I’m sitting and waiting for my afternoon snack, called love
Not giving in to the reflection in the asphalt Walking with my own feet, I looked at people, and thought If I could move, if there was a place I wanted to head to Then I would walk there with my own feet
There were nights when I wasn’t sure if I’d be able to Get my real smile back again Supported by the warmth of the people that I love I thought that maybe I should try to believe, one more time
Times are tough, I wish I could say that; that’s how I feel We’re a couple of laughing cowards, acting tough Even though I’m lonely, I’m pretending to be just fine In order to protect myself, who feels like he’s about to crumble, but
My mistakes and scars, being perplexed and the days when I was about to cry They’re all proof that I lived my life, as myself If you want to do something, then from now on Sketch out your pitiful dream, with more strength than anyone else Readying your explanation, and holding your head high without hesitation Keep on singing about a person called yourself
*credits to: http://hollowslayer0413.wordpress.com
merry, nabasa ko na yung reply mo.:) wala na koy maingon kay naigo ko sa heart. sorry pud kung nakahilak ka. nakahilak pud ko habang ginasulat nako to sa paper. hahaha. XD. chime, THANK YOU! I LOVE YOU, MERRY~!
for you..... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=X_rp5rtyZJg
to the one who blends her voice with mine first of all, I would like to great you a belated happy 15th birthday. you know to whom i am reffering to right? XD hehehe. i was really wishing that i could make you a letter and here it is.:D im also writing this to let you know that from the buttom of my heart, i thank you for being and telling me things. thank you for all of these years that the both of us spent together. thank you for sharing your thoughts and for blending yours to mine. thank you for standing on your ground and fighting for what you believe is right. and that's one thing that i like about you. though, i'm the kind of opposite to you, we instead became friends... friends for stupid things and friends for real. i also thank you because you accept me for who i am. that's also one thing that i really needed from someone like you.
you know, the time when you said something about her, i felt that you really cared for someone like me. i wanted to say that, you're one of the people who i really admire. to stand on her own ground and to live happily with family and friends. though you may see me as an idiotic & stupid/can't understand person & alien, i really appreciate it & i'm comfortable when you're around. the truth is, even though i'm like this kind of person, i'm really hurting inside. she was the first one to know about me & my family's situation when i came back to japan last year. she was there to comfort me and to understand what i've gone through.
i was planning to tell you guys, but i guess i still can't. i'll tell it to you slowly so that the pain won't come back. at that time, i was ready to tell her about the truth. that's why she's important to me even though she acts like that. there was one time that i asked God to lent me someone whom i can spend with and i can share my feelings & thoughts to. God answered my prayer and it goes that all along the way, she was the one i asked God about. though sometimes, i tend to be uncomfortable because she's like that. but above all these things i said to you, i really thank you for simply becoming a true bestfriend to me. i'm sorry about things because i know that may pagkukulang din ako sa iyo. i'm sorry because i'm sometimes clueless & reckless but that's one thing that would make you and others feel happy & light-hearted. i'm also sorry because i spend most of my time with her. i wanted to start all over again so that our friendship would be renewed. so that also we can spend more time together as sisters & bestfriends. what do you say? :D
I LOVE YOU, CHIME!
p.s. i wanted you to listen to this song because this is what i sometimes feel. (demi lovato- believe in me)
love, your bestfriend forever & still an alien, Argon. XD
hi guys! it's been a long time that i didn't posted anything in here. well, i've been pretty busy and i've been telling myself alot of times that i should write something in here..:) forgive me about my lazyness.XD
well anyways, i edited some pictures using adobe photoshop and i wanted to show it to you guys here...
there you go....:D
in other news, about the letter to that someone who blends her voice with mine, mahimo na dyud nako siya. please wait for a little longer.:)
and how can i forget, ang buhok ni manong... nagbag-o. hahaha. but dianne thinks that it suits him well.. but i'm in the other way around her compliment about that. hehehe.:))
and finalllllly, i'm going to try my best to be active in this blog. and i hope that you guys still come here about news && etc. :D
i just remembered this song right now. and i felt really happy. i dunno why everytime i listen to this song, it would always make me happy.:) and that's a good thing!:D
you know guys, i kept on sinning these days and i can't get it out of myself. i would always feel that i'm really down and i kept on doing it when i know it's wrong and it would harm God.. right now, i'm really blessed because something came in my mind that i need to watch God's Love Letter to me. and so i did. i kept on watching until i would break down and cry. i am really blessed this day. and i hope that everyone of you, right now, who is reading this, SHOULD watch the said video above. please guys, you would really change if you let it change you and i would continue to watch this everyday so that i will be much more closer to my Father.
so these are my first edited pictures using adobe photoshop cs4 portable. i wanna show it to you and please let me know if you don't like it or it's the other way around. i'm still new to this kind of editing but i'm trying to get used to it. anyways, enjoy!:D
is going to play plants vs. zombies.. i think? a.r.g.e.n.n
a song by Avril Lavigne for the movie 'Alice In Wonderland'. i first saw this in MYX and I was really suprised because this was a news song from her. for some reason, i wanted to watch that movie but it's still not yet. lol. but, nevermind.:D
about the post ' to the someone who blends hers to mine', i still didn't posted it. but i'll really try my best to post it the next day. so please, do come here.:)
waaaaa. this day is really a tiring one. i just foun out my score in my science exam... i don't want to talk about it. it made me cry and question myself that what's happening to my scores recently. i kind of became a pessimist these past few days. telling myself that i think i didn't do good in some subjects. questioning myself about those scores really made me go mad. i guess it was all thanks to my disobedience (especially to my friends) and my stupidness that resulted to this kind of score. i admit that i wasn't really ready to take that exam. to my friends, please take a look on me and help me solve my problems.
now, i don't really know what i'm feeling. i felt really isolated but i try to open up and get things back together. it's just that whatever move i make, it will always lead up to something. maybe this is also one of the reasons why i get so low everyday. but i'm getting a lot of strength to those who is really important for me... and to God.
hi guys! just today, we took our retake of exams in science. it was a tough retake. there was one item there that really made me cry. to prechan and to diichan also. they didn't finished that item. some gradually got the correct answers while some don't. but still, i got to say to say that it's really hard. i can only hope and pray that God will provide us a good grade and learn from it.
in any news, guichan, chimechan, diichan and i (with miechan) will possibly have something interesting to do this summer '10. WE'RE GOING TO MAKE A MUSIC VIDEO AND SING FIRST LOVE by Utada Hikaru. Hopefully, we will all be successful to making it. what can we get from it? i hope we can be discovered.hehehehe.XD
and also~! el nino's really bad right now. look what it did to our surroundings. but i'm thankful that it somehow rained today. wee! GO EARTH!
for the next following days, I will try to make a post about someone who is a dear bestfriend of mine. but right now, i'm still posting this to tell anyone who reads this about my upcoming post. please open my page frequently and hope to enjoy your stay!
When I lay down on the rooftop I was amazed with what I saw Stars that twinkle in the night Wishing everything will be alright.
The thought of seeing them was nostalgic And somehow in a way, it becomes magic I never thought that something like this exists With God who provides us gifts.
this song really moved me and I want to share this song to everyone that all of us may find peace and everlasting life in HIM. and through HIM we can find inner peace and joy forever.
Falling on my knees in worship Giving all I am to seek your face Lord all I am is yours
My whole life I place in your hands God of Mercy Humbled I bow down In your presence at your throne
I called you answered And you came to my rescue and I I wanna be where you are
In my life be lifted high In our world be lifted high In our love be lifted high
You know guys, our school went to a retreat at G12 Campus in Venee's Hotel just this saturday. It was all-girls so that no one of us can be embarrassed. We went there in the morning. ate food while some people were lecturing, chit chatting, and etc. I kind of expected that something really incredible is going to happen that day. So I was actually ready for anything. We were having a lot of lectures during the day and I learned a lot from those lectures. I already knew that both HEAVEN and HELL are real. It's really real. When time passed by, we first did was to forgive. For me, it was quiet new to me. I was somehow afraid to forgive. But I let it all out, I didn't know why I kept on crying. While we were on session, I heard a lot of weeping and some laughing.(namely: chivy and chime). So I was really amazed with what God had done to me and to them. I let all of my hurt and misunderstandings and kept on crying. My throat was really bursting out and I can't even stop both shouting and crying. (To te jill & czar: te jill, thanks for lending me your shoulders to cry on tsaka sorry rin kung nasipunan kita.XD and to czar, thanks for comforting me and helping me when I was crying out loud.) So, it was, after all, somewhat amazing and unbelievable to think that you could cry it out and leave it to God's loving hands. But, to tell you the truth, I let all of my hurt and regained back my friendship towards people. I was really happy that I did forgive!
So the 1st part of the retreat ended before we ate our lunches. After that, there were about 3 to 4 lectures, I think, before the ENCOUNTER WITH GOD happened. After the lectures, I thought that it's gonna end. I mean the retreat is gonna end. But, we were told to move the chairs aside and I knew that IT was going to start in a matter of minutes. So I made myself ready before God. On my left side, there was Ronel. On my right side was Dii-chan. We were told to raise both our hands to the sky and let the Holy Spirit make wonders to us. At first, I suddenly began crying and crying and begging the Lord to come into me. I can also remember that I was thinking really hard of the phrase, "You'll find me seeking You, You'll find me seeking You." It left a mark on my mind and kept on thinking about it while a person was guiding and praying for me. The commotion was becoming loud and I can still remember that I can't even understand anything that I heard. I said to myself that I don't want to open my eyes because I wanterd to feel God. There were a lot crying and laughing and speaking in tounges. Me, I knew that God is with us by that moment so I thought that I want to give in to Him. Any moment, the person guided me to sit down because I was really trembling and holding into my knees. I could also remember that I kept on crying. My throat was about to explode because i kept on crying and crying and then stop...and then cry and cry then there were also the time that I said to God that I want to see my great-grandmother at that moment. I was kept on repeating to God that I want to see her and know that she's with Him. I'm not sure if I got the gift of vision but I saw some light that was moving like a candle.(Dii-chan told me that she has that vision before we had our retreat.) And also there was the battle of light and darkness. I was struggling to know what was going on and I didn't know what to do but in the end, the light won the fight and I was overwhelmed.(Diichan also experienced this.) So there, Rika testified just this day and she mentioned to the class that I kept on kicking her the moment we had our encounter but I didn't knew I was kicking her. She also said that I was laughing and crying and laughing. And also, I was speaking in tounges! Well, I could remember a little that I didn't knew what I was speaking. I was just sitting and suddenly, I was like talking to someone in another language. I'm not sure though. All I can remember is that I lied down in the ground and I also heard Ronel and Rika cry out. At that moment, I also felt my body was tickled by something so I let out my laugh and then cry again. I thought that there were still a lot of people lying in the floor so I didn't mind my surroundings. Until I opened my eyes and then saw some of my friends and saw Ronel crying infront of me. We both hugged each other and me, Diichan, and Ronel went back to our respective seats like we were walking like drunk people. After that, I was given merienda and saw Rika lying on the floor and she suddenly cried out really hard while some people were helping her carry from the floor. After that, I didn't knew I was suddenly crying seeing Rika like that. And after that, I thought that the encounter was going to end but I suddenly laughed out really hard. I didn't knew that that would be the starting time of my laughter-then-crying time. I kept on doing it but I couldn't stop myself. (Thanks to Kamae, T. Sheila, T. Janeth, T. Sheila, Angel and to the rest who helped me come back to myself.) Some said that I was really laughing hard and then crying and then laughing so on and so forth. I could also that I was laughing with reason when I saw Chivy and we looked at each other for a split second and then.. our laughs could fill the room up. I could also remember Chime and Guichan's laughs after I broke my laugh with Chivy. T. Sheila told us that it's like talking and responding to someone's laughs. I could also remember that I was shaking myself though I was already on my seat while the speaker is speaking infront of us. Dunno why but Chime, Chivy, Gui, and I was really laughing hard w/o reasons. I also saw some Jacinto students watching us. I could also remember Rina and Mie shaking while Joanne and Diichan was both speaking in tongues. Thanks to the prayers and those who prayed for me, it really did helped me restore myself again though it took me plenty of time to gain myself again. Thank you so much!
Up to now, I could still feel God's Holy Spirit within us. It's really powerful and I pray that I won't let go of that experience in my life up until I grow old. I'm really happy that I experienced God's gifts because I was really wishing that I can somehow experience it even if it's just once. But right now, I'm really blessed to accept God and worshipping Him. THANK YOU LORD FOR YOU ARE THE LIGHT IN MY DARKNESS!LAST SATURDAY WAS THE BEST DAY OF MY LIFE!I LOVE YOU LORD!
GUYS! I'M IN A BLOG CONSTRUCTION RIGHT NOW SO DON'T GET SHOCKED IF I STILL DIDN'T EDITED SOME WIDGETS IN HERE AND IF THE PLACE IS KINDA MESSY. I HOPE EVERYONE OF YOU UNDERSTANDS!
You know, I personally thought that I once lost a great old friend. Someone whom I befriended with for almost 7 years of happiness, sadness, bad times and good times. I guess when I'm not around, she can be very much happy because she doesn't need someone like me who is a boring person. She can live a life without me anymore. And knowing this makes me go mad, like something really hit me hard and left me with nothing. I guess our friendship won't stay that long now. She has her own way and I got mine. I guess things are much much better this way. Thank you for making me happy, for accepting my gifts and thinking that it's more valuable to give something coming from the bottom of my heart, for making me become my true self when I'm with you, for sharing memorable thoughts and even embarrassing moments, for being a bestfriend when things go severely wrong, for making me laugh because we're making ourselves stupid and funny and thinking that it's happy doing things together, for making me cry and for making me learn from lessons of life, for putting yourself for me, for being courageous to talk about your feelings and telling me to go back to my own self, for trusting me that I can do things without you, for not being embarrassed because I, myself, isn't embarrassed, for giving me a pile of letters telling that you are blessed to have me in your life, for becoming a bestfriend and telling me frankly about things and such, for being the bestest mirror out of myself.
The things that would always come in my mind when I'm with other friends who I thought that they are the ones whom I should share my time with... I often thought that I should follow what you had said to me. When we were little, I was always spending time to people who I thought that they would be always there, making you and the others feel jealous. Now I regret the those kinds of things. But to gain friendship is to have difficulties along the way.
In any ways, I'm going back to the friendship which taught me how to have a real bestfriend who made a promise with me that we will be bestfriends forever. And I guess we kept that promise for almost 3 years to a decade.
Just right now, this really caught me. "So if you have a friend with whom you’ve fought for some reason or have simply lost touch due to your busy schedules, then its time to give them a call or meet up. Life is too short to hold grudges and harbor bitterness, cherish the people who have been with you and are always with you …Friends are always friends no matter what, every friendship goes through its good and bad phases, but remember that you can make a difference by taking the first step and bridging the gap…What are you waiting for?" I hope that I can make it up to you and enjoy each other's company.
Hello everyone! Welcome to my blog.:) So I was forced to make a blog by my bestfriend and she have a blog too. Actually, we both planned this just last night talking over the phone. Hehehe. Anyways, I hope that I can organize much more of my blog and post some good stories and etc. HAVE FUN!
